i don't even have any tears this time. like, not right now... it's totally numbing because like, i get it: when someone [finally] lays out that he categorically does not want you, it puts things into a whole different perspective and assassinates desire for whatever you thought you wanted.
so. this will be ...interesting.... figuring out the full disengage, the software uninstall from this part of my life with the true intention/goal/new desire to move on so that love will live&thrive.
i don't know what will come, but day one, so far so good: you keep reminding yourself of those pertinent, hurtful truths of the final conversation, and you resolve that it will keep you moving forward.