Tuesday, March 24, 2009

month in review...

march is whizzing by.

ella drama is getting smoothed out. more or less, i suppose. slowly but surely. timely enough.
made plans to bring home out here, and then bring me to home for bday.
seen the musical love of my life (saadiq!) twice in two days.
seen the psuedo-love of my life-turned most significant friend (in nyc anyway) more often than i've anticipated these days.
seen vomit and diarrhea aka food poisoning one time more than i ever need to see again.
kinda started working out, so i can be healthy when i turn 30 and not get fat.

and now, it's almost april!

Saturday, March 14, 2009


tonight was one of those nights i live for, but no longer question if or when they may pop up. my goal for some time has been to not question the things i will not get immediate answers to or fully understand (i.e. my turn at unmistakeable love). for me, not seizing this moment wasn't an option because i cherish each moment i get to spend with this person; the one lucky chap i'd choose to chill indefinitely with on a deserted island, that had no wireless or cell phone coverage, and would totally be content (even if i'm fairly certain that i'm not the person he'd choose). some things will never change. so, we unexpectedly spent a few hours together, and took a casual meander down the city streets, in our grand tradition. and it was comfortable and familiar. yet at the forefront of my mind was a cautionary tickertape that reminded me "it's just this moment, and this moment will end when i reach nassau street*. i.e. soon and very soon, this moment will end. whereas the moment in and of itself is a welcomed encore from the evening, there will be no encore to this moment. prepare for the goodbye. that will be it." so. this is me. happy for the moment. and that's where it ends. (because i get in trouble if it doesn't end when the moment does. but that tickertape will keep me in reality check. i hope.)

*broadway/nassau is the last subway stop in manhattan where you can jump on the A to brooklyn.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Why I love Frasier!!!!


Thursday, March 05, 2009


but i guess it's for good cause.

i just can't wait until i will have been done taking care of this and am looking back like

"dag, 'member dat..."

things are happening so quickly, and i feel inadequately prepared; though there are many people, it seems, who are knowledgeable and willing to answer my bombardment of questions to figure it out.

hindsight is twenny/twenny.
but at least i got the presence of mind
to handle it in the present.

Monday, March 02, 2009

her morning elegance

oren lavie has the most breathtaking video i've seen in a long time. i'm like totally speechless. i can't wait to watch it again. i've never seen anything like it... is this how dreams unfold? it's the illest dream sequence EVER!

Sunday, March 01, 2009

i sho' lak how thangs is unfoldin...

is's a bit overwhelmin' tah tell de truth.. but i laks it.
feels bout' right rat'now. so..
we shall see.

cuz, ah gots ta bulieve
dat thangs is unfoldin
as best fuh mi.
and my life.

i reckon i do buhlieves it.
yes, chile, i do.