saturday and sunday were doosies, daggone emotions running amuck (in completely unrelated news: the other day ko-kwa told me that the word "amuck" is derived from a filipino word in tagalog (or was it malaysian?)... i thought that was pretty interesting, i love etymology!....). meanwhile, i've gone from being tearfully disappointed and tryin to understand, to just being, well, disappointed... and tryin to understand. and now i get to spend hours pondering whether i'll ever understand .OR. will the disappointment just eventually clear itself out along with my desire to (say it with me) understand why things are going down the way the are....?