Sunday, December 31, 2006

The BENEDICTION... (according to Bishop Kenneth C. Ulmer)

Well it's been a good day
a good year
a year that the Lord has made
we have rejoiced and we are glad in it.
Now we ask
for the last time this year
and for the first time
in the coming year
that YOU
Go before us to lead us
Beside us to protect us
Behind us to push and encourage us
Above us to cover us
Beneath us to sustain us
and IN us to fill us
with Your presence and power
that our lives might bring
honor and glory unto you
and we ask this
in the name that is above every name
in the name of Christ Jesus

Friday, December 29, 2006

the obligatory end of the yr i'm thankful for what's been and what's to come... (written is Las Vegas Airport)

i'm sayin...

it's been a good year. a. GOOD. year. a yr of blessings. and firsts. i can't plan for these things. i don't plan my life. never been good at it. but i trust GOD and i move fwd and i make it work. i read a post by a friend distinguishing the difference between the inconvenieces of life and the full on tragedies. i give thanx and hold my breath all at the same time that there's been no tragedies. my support is still in tact and they love me. God's grace is sufficient. i still peer out from rose-colored glasses, but yo, it's working. it keeps me sane. just a tool to keep my heart jumpin.

a yr of firsts.
first masters (well, probably only masters!)
first job that i feel like was really made for me
first time seeing War and the Rev Al Green
first all veggie all raw aww MAN fast... (and it won't be the last i guess...)
first time to chicago
first time on a lot of lil streets in manhattan
first time finding adventure on staten island
first time i liked a boy/and he liked me back just the same/and held my hand& my heart (even if he didn't mean to)
first time to vegas... as an adult!
first time indoor skydiving (!)
or probably a host of other random firsts that i feel lucky to have had...

i pray for a graceful new yr. God's grace and all that it entails. more firsts. a few follow-ups. more passion. more love. active love. proactive love. more roses. more rose colored glasses. or at least shades. more laughter. more embraces. more dance. more of the little things that shape the quality of life. because that other stuff is gonna be there. it's gonna be there. so may as well be peace.

if you see me in the new yr, and i've lost my grin, my dance, my knack for finding the silly in all things sane.... come and see about me. please.

Monday, December 11, 2006


whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy was i on HOLD for FORTY SEVEN MINUTES with the LA Free Clinic (after dialing the number FIVE TIMES before the busy signal i was waiting for finally let up) to make a dental appoitment, only to find out from the operator that they are no longer taking new dental patients at this time grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr..... it actually took about 2.5 minutes for her to say this to me and hang up as i tried to question why i waited 47 mins to find that out when there could've been a pre-recorded MESSAGE stating this pertinent lil tidbit of info............

Monday, December 04, 2006

this will probably become a poem at some point...

reaons why....

not because of the things you do
for me,
but because

are the person

who would do the things
that you do for me.

it drives me crazy that you won't say anything.
& that you'll deny b4 you'll confirm.
& that my conclusions are drawn based on conversations
of daysweeksmonths passed.
but you're here. & you've been here.
so i guess i know.

and yet none of these things either keep me from
or cause me to love

the part of you
i've come to know.

i do because it's comfortable.

random thoughts from 11/16 &11/20