Thursday, August 31, 2006

my original thought was to call this blog: "DAMMIT NEO.... WHY'D YOU HAVE TO TAKE THE STUPID RED PILL???"....

....cause i can't even LOOK at food or juices the same way since i started this cleansing diet... i mean i saw this dude sippin on a Hawaiian Punch (which used to be one of my favorite beverages to drink back in junior high school... Hawaiian Punch + Coffee Cake= SUGAR HIGH... yikes).. so yeah your boy was drink HwnPch on the train and all i saw was a can of HIGH FRUCTOSE CORN SYRUP and whatever else they put in there like exorbant amounts of food coloring and other stuff i can hardly pronounce.. but that's not what this is about.. the point is that i look at stuff and i'm starting to see it for what it really is.. i look at fruit and i'm like SUGAR (although it's the good kind, right...), I look at Eggo Waffles (which I've bought by the BOXES at Target) and I see TRANSFAT. I mean, i realllllyyyy didn't/don't want to turn into one of those people who takes all the joy out of eating tasty food and has hang-ups about every little thing we like to eat. you know what i mean.. i really see where ole boy in the Matrix was coming from, the one who made a deal with The Agent to erase his enlightened awareness of being OUTSIDE of the matrix. Awwww man, I could really FEEEELLL when he bit into that steak with a savor-the-flavor contentment on his face.. but he was CHOOSING TO IGNORE the truth and reside in the bliss of ignorance...

...sigh... i guess you can say i successfully completed 1 solid day of diet and cleansing, and my second day of raw eating... i started the day with an ounce of wheatgrass, and snacked on a cucumber with the intentions to eat a big greeeeenfriendly salad seasoned with fresh squeezed lemon and lime.. but i never got to the salad. this is the problem with sitting sedentary at a desk all day, when i sit i either get the urge to snack OR i don't feel hunry AT ALL (well, i think wheatgrass contributes to suppressing your hunger too, but i don't know how accurate that is). today was one of those days where hunger didn't really kick in. (ok, that's a problem right there that needs to be addressed: learning how to eat for nourishment and not hunger.. lol). SO i ended up not eating anything else after I snacked on my cucumber, just drank water all day til 6pm... i realized that this was a bad idea when I ran out of the office and into CVS, then jumped on the train downtown to the Bowery Poetry Club to my gurl's book release.. Somewhere between running into CVS and gettin on the V i ran completely out of steam. that's when it REALLY dawned on me, "ummm i really haven't eaten anything all day".

Sooo, i managed to hold it together, make a few connecs @ the poetry reading, and get home to get my large green salad about an hr ago.... not to mention a nice big avocado seasoned with lime.. it was tasty to say the least...

...but now i'm HUNGRY again...
salad just don't stick to your ribs like a warm fresh-out-the-oven slice of LASAGNA (or BROWNIES)!!!! :(

ps i did manage to graciously turn down an offer of a slice of cake AND dinner uptown with some friends... man, when this cleanse is over........ !

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